BFN

I woke up just before 4 o'clock this morning and couldn't go back to sleep because I was so excited about my beta test. Unfortunately, I missed out on a couple hours of sleep for nothing. I was having lunch with sweet Shelley when I got the call from the nurse to tell me that I am not pregnant. To be honest, I wasn't surprised at all. I just don't feel pregnant.

I wasn't upset so much with the not being pregnant, but as I look ahead at the next couple of months, I am very concerned that Michael's travel schedule is going to coincide with our IUI dates. He doesn't seem to think that our fertility treatments will be a good enough reason for his boss to let him sub out the work. You can imagine how that makes me feel. Grrr! I'm going to have to get to the point (hopefully today) where I can hand all that timing stuff over to the Lord and let Him deal with it, because it's one of those things I just don't have any control over. I guess I just need to have my hissy fit before I can come at this from a spiritual perspective again. How mature of me!

So, thanks for hanging in there with me this month. I'm afraid we've still got a ways to go, though. Your support and friendship make the burden a little easier to bear. Thank you for blessing me with your prayers.

As for tonight, this is how I'm going to deal with it:

Make it a double, Mitch!