Saturday, September 15, 2007

Fly Away Ladybug

Another bittersweet moment...

First, the bitter:

I shed a few tears while packing up the contents of the dresser I'd been keeping for Jillian this afternoon. I remembered all the places I'd shopped for her, and all the friends and family members who'd given gifts in anticipation of her arrival. I now have three plastic tubs full of (mostly pink) baby items. If we have a girl someday, they will be used. If we have boys... Well, then I'll get excited about boy things, won't I? Sigh...

Now, the sweet:

I kept most everything, but there were some items that pertained to China adoption and Chinese culture that I've decided should belong to someone still on that path. So, I'm going to put together a care package for a waiting mommy in Lake Tahoe. I hope she and Annaliese will one day soon be able to enjoy those items together.

7 comments:

Kristen said...

What a nice thing to do for a good friend... If you don't have a girl... you'll have lots of ready made gifts to hand out to those who do.. Boy things are just as fun too... I love the "little man" stuff we get in the shop I work in on the weekends... sooo cute!!

I thought about you alot this last week when 7/06 came out of review. I hope you are taking time to grieve. Not that you have much time!!! Thats a good thing.

Shelley said...

Oh gosh, I can imagine that was a hard thing to do.

But what a nice way to bring closure to that chapter of your life. And you know those items will have very special meaning for Paulette and her baby girl.

Paulette said...

Joannah
Thank you so much for helping to keep my dream alive I received the adoption magazines and the book and they are pilled up next to my bed and I fall asleep to them every night. It helps me to feel more connected to this process. You have been such a great support to me and I will bring you to China with me in so many ways. I have learned so much from you and just yesterday I was thinking that if you got pregnant lets say in 9 weeks... you would have a baby before I could get Annalise home. I know you have made the best decision for you family and as hard as it has been it will bring you so much happiness. I am live through you these days, as I have always dreamed of planning a wedding. I will be honored to live your China Adoption dream and make it come true so you can be Auntie Joannah some day soon. Thanks so much for being such a great friend.

God Bless

Princess Diaries said...

I can only imagine how torn you must feel at times. I know Annaliese will love the baby things you generously sent her. I always feel that in the end things happen for a reason and I know we met through your journey!

redmaryjanes said...

I think that is a wonderful thing to do.

Shannon said...

How hard to let a dream go while you watch another come true. I am glad you are keeping some things for the future. You are gonna be a wonderful mommy to your babies! (Yes, the plural was used!) Can't wait til you start blogging about it!! =)

Alyson & Ford said...

What a wonderful post. Lots of memories and friendships made (most only in bloggy-land).
Best wishes on your new life as two become one.

Alyson
LID 01/27/06