Thursday, May 28, 2009

"Poorly Differentiated Cancer of Unknown Origin"

That's what the doctor's orders say. Cedars-Sinai wasn't able to figure out the cell type either. So, the next step is a biopsy of the mass on Michael's kidney. That will take place on Monday afternoon.

There was some good news today.

Whatever type of cancer this is has not gone to his bones or his brain. Praise God for that!

This week has been harder for me than last week. I have been feeling down. I think it's in part to a cold/cough thing I've picked up from my germy little students, and PMS. But, I've just been struggling to remain positive. There is so much tension that accumulates between biopsies and tests, and the doctors' appointments. And then we just don't get any conclusive answers and it starts all over again. It's very draining. Somehow, I'm going to have to get better at coping with it.

Thank you for continuing to pray for us.

19 comments:

AprilMay said...

Oh honey, I'm so sorry you are not getting any answers! It is so tough not knowing your enemy. I am like you...I would want to research and learn and find out and that's impossible to do right now. That totally stinks!! I am also sorry you are not feeling well. But, I am VERY happy it is not in his brain or bones! I will continue to pray for protection and knowledge and understanding and tension relief! It's those side effects of cancer...tension, anger...that are the real enemy.

Special K said...

Praying for you, J. And Michael.

M3 said...

Oh sweetie, sending huge hugs and good thoughts. I've been thinking about you guys all week. Not knowing any answers is so hard. I think your body goes into constant "fight or flight" when you're facing these types of questions and it's mentally and physically exhausting.

Kathy and Joel said...

I think you're pretty amazing for what you and Michael have been through. You must be so exhausted and it's no wonder. Be good to yourself and rest when you can. You are never far from my thoughts.

Alex and Jill said...

I'm so sorry, Joannah. The word cancer is just so scary. I'm praying for you both.

((BIG HUG))

D said...

Wow...good news among the bad, though...we'll take that, too! Hang in there and praying for you.

Kathryn said...

Also praying. Don't feel like i've words that are anyway to address this, but continuing to pray. :)

Terri @ in His hands said...

Joannah,
I had two biopsies in my breast within six months of each other this past year and I totally know how stressful it is between appointments. This last one I thought I had a handle on it and committed myself to totally trusting God with the outcome (benign, praise God!) however what happened was that I was OK with the "big things" and any "little thing" threw me over the edge. I think you may want to journal your feelings and find a way to accept them and then release them.
Praying for you, for Michael, for the wisdom of the doctors and praising God for being with all of you, every step of the way.

Shelley said...

Keeping you guys in my prayers. hugs

Kristin said...

thinking of you. xx

mekate said...

I so agree with your other commenters-- of course you are tired, and I am so sorry you are down. I think it makes sense that this is draining, this not knowing, or knowing only some things and not others.

I am so happy for the good news about bones and brain, and so hopeful you will find real answers to the other questions too-- wishing on you the simplest possible easily treatable outcome.

Holding you in my thoughts,
Kate

3D said...

It is so hard to stay positive but this is wonderful news. Continue to find the positive and that will give you strength. Hugs and prayers.

Keep smilin!

Paula said...

I'm just catching up on your blog..I am and will be praying for Michael.

Kudo said...

Sounds like you have caught it early what a blessing. I am so sorry you are getting the medical run around. It is so hard. Have you looked for a yahoo group and started your own reserch? It helps so much to know others gong through the same thing. I may need one for broken arms... Thanks for your prayers too Lilly is making slow progress. Keeping you both in my prayers. Summer vaca will be her soon hold on.

Sara said...

Prayers...sending lots.
Sara

PIPO said...

Hugs and prayers....

kris said...

i know i've been away for too long, for that i am so sorry. i will definitely be praying for him and for you. if you need anything, please email. i'm so glad to hear there hasn't been any spread to his bone or brain. can't imagine how hard it is waiting to know what happens next.

thinking of you both.

Donna said...

I'm been thinking about you guys all week and I'm so sad to see the diagnosis that it is cancer but relieved to learn that it's not spread. I'm just so sorry you're both going through this. Really sorry. Sorry about that cold too.

:::hugs:::

Donna
Our blog: Double Happiness!

Julie said...

Hugs and prayers