Friday, January 25, 2008

Feeling Blue


So, I decided to take the day off today. I'm in a little bit of a funk, and experiencing the usual malaise that goes with "that time of the month". While I have managed to shower and put on a little makeup, I'm still in my big, fluffy robe lounging on the couch. I only feel moderately guilty for not doing anything productive with myself. The laundry can wait, I guess.

I have mixed feelings about not doing our third IUI this cycle. It means that it's highly unlikely that I'll be pregnant this coming month. Our reasoning for putting it off one more cycle is that because of Michael's travel schedule, his "contribution" would have to be frozen. Freezing kills those little guys, thereby lowering the count. Not good. So, we'll save our thousand bucks and try again later.

In the meantime, I think we both hope that not having to go through the IUI process again right now will allow us to decompress a little bit and enjoy being together more. Fertility treatments are wonderful in that they can result in a pregnancy and ultimately children. But the many doctor's appointments, drugs, procedures, and their expense have added stress to our life.

So, I'm resolving to just enjoy being my husband's wife for the next three or four weeks and not dwell on our fertility issues for a little while.

Thanks for all the kind comments and emails. You guys are the best!

14 comments:

fuzzandfuzzlet said...

I think you are wise to take a break. Fresh cycles have a much higher success rate than frozen.

Take care and enjoy the little break.

Two Kayaks said...

Having faced the fertility hell you are experiencing, I can honestly say that I understand so completely. I also know that there is nothing more conducive to some peace of mind is taking a scheduled break. I hope that you can find something that will make you smile today. If you need to talk, I am just an email away.

OziMum said...

Beauty can come out of being blue... that is a gorgeous photo!

I'm so sorry that things didn't go according to plan. I understand your thoughts on waiting til hubs is around... the thought of the little guys on ice... is chilling! (ha! pun intended!)

I totally get, the stress that the whole "cycle" brings. May you relax, laugh, love & live as if you don't have a care in the world!

2weeks2much said...

It's great that you were able to take a personal day. You need to pamper yourself now and you are so right, the stress of trying brings so much more added stress. I hope you were able to watch a good movie or read a good book! Thinking about you and hoping you're ok!

2weeks2much said...

Thanks so much for the hugs!!

Sandra said...

Here's to a wonderful few weeks for you and Michael, just being husband and wife...

jcmiller24 said...

I hope your day home was a restful day. Hopefulness is a good thing. You always have a positive attitude. That's one thing I admire about you.
Take care and have a great weekend.

Kudo said...

Hang in there girl it will happen in God's timing and I think you made a good choice to wait until your sweetie was there. The weather could also be a damper on your mood, I have not seen the sun in a week.

Mob said...

I agree with everyone else. Its good to take a break. Its nice to take a personal day once in a while and just have time to yourself.

Kayce said...

Hope dinner was good and you enjoyed that glass of wine! Hugs!

Jacquie said...

We had a hard time planning our cycles around my DH traveling too, was not fun. But we finally had success.

()Hugs))

AprilMay said...

I hope you had a wonderful day off!!
I am thinking of you. :)

krj said...

I'm sorry you're feeling blue, and hope your mood is brightened by relaxing a bit and taking some time just to be with your husband.

Ashlie's Mom said...

I wish we would have taken a month break in between each of our three cycles. Its so stressful. Take care of yourself!