Michael is having a difficult day. He's got a sore throat, so he's not been much interested in eating and communicating with his mom and me is a great effort. On top of that, the hospice nurse is determined to get him to "go". So, I just had to give him some sort of liquid concoction for that. He is not in a good mood. In fact, I do think this is the first day he's really felt discouraged and depressed.
Seeing him so weak and down in the dumps is heartbreaking. I want to be able to say or do something to make things better for him, but there doesn't seem to be anything I can do right now.
We all know life can change in an instant, and mine has. I was enjoying my life as a newlywed, savoring every day with my wonderful husband, and trying to overcome infertility when we learned in May of 2009 that he has kidney cancer. Now, our focus is on his health. Through our struggles with infertility my faith in Christ grew, and now I can face this new challenge knowing that we are in His hands.